April 9, 2012

amnesia.

Sweater: J. Crew (on major sale right now).  Button-up/Necklace: Loft.  Skirt: H&M. Shoes: Jessica Simpson via Ross.  Bag: Vintage.



Let me start by telling you all thank you so much for all the love you showed me after my little announcement on Friday.

It may be all the hormones, but I got so emotional reading them.  

I have been dying, dying to tell you all since we found out six weeks ago.  Especially since it’s pretty much constantly on my mind, and I have been rather ill with this new little.

Here’s the thing about motherhood.

It comes with amnesia.

Like even though I’ve done this 3 times before, I completely forgot how tired you get, and how it feels to be nauseated all day, every day, and how once you’ve already had a baby and you get pregnant with another, your belly wastes no time popping right out, making it nearly impossible to fit into any of your pants roughly five minutes after the positive pregnancy test.

I had completely forgotten all of it.

And still, every morning I wake up happy as a clam, thinking about what my new little is going to look like, and imagining that delicious squishy little baby body, the way they curl right up into your chest like they’re still part of you.  I can’t think of any feeling I love more in the whole world.



And I didn’t think it was possible, but being pregnant again has made me love my littles even more.  All I want to do is smooch them all day long.



And then there’s Mr.

Who becomes even more of a saint when I’m pregnant, which incidentally, is another thing I forgot.  And he touches my little bulging belly all the time, and cooks dinner way more often than he should have to, and picks up more than his share of the chores, and never complains when I pass out on the couch for half the day on a Saturday, or begin crying for no apparent reason.



I always have so much to be grateful for, but I feel it so much more lately.  My littles, Mr, the new babe, amazing friends who offer to take my kids for the whole afternoon just so I can take a nap.

And especially, I feel grateful that the Lord made me wait.

It took a long time to make this little.  At first it made me worry that I might never have another one, then it made me sad when I thought I wouldn’t, and then I felt grateful for the ones I had, and I had a lot of peace.  But I still wanted another one.  So badly.



And now every time I start feeling unbelievably sick, I think to myself how badly I wanted this, and how much I had to wait and I don’t even care.  Bring on the nausea.

And I think, “Wow, He really knows what He’s doing.”



Yes, yes He does.





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ps. the winner of the Down East giveaway is:

Heather from Life with D&H.



Congrats!  Email me to claim your prize.

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  1. Michelle wrote:

    What a sweet post! I have 3 girls and I got extremely sick with each one of them. But I agree with you, those little babies are so worth it in the end! Plus, I just could never figure out an easier way to get them here ;)
    Excited to hear all about your pregnancy!

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  2. phiphis blog wrote:

    congratulations!! you are so adorable – this is wonderful news! much love to you and your family!

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  3. Heather wrote:

    What a beautiful post, Cori! And, oh my goodness, I was shocked to see I had won! Yay! :)

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  4. Denise wrote:

    I too can chalk it up to His timing, not mine. I went through all those emotions you did, twice. Getting pregnant has never been easy, #1 &#2 are 4 1/2 yrs apart, and finally #3 is on their way and will be 5 yrs apart from #2. So, as I get sick and so tired all I can think is thank you and finally!

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  5. Rach wrote:

    you look so gorgeous! you are positively glowing :)

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  6. { Carroll's } wrote:

    Cori I agree with timing. I didn’t think we could ever have kids so we adopted my first and two months later found out I was pregnant with twins. 9 months after the twins were born found out I was pregnant again. 4 kids 28 months and younger and icertainly wouldn’t change one thing. Being pregnant or having a kid is a blessing. Congratulations. Xoxo

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  7. Frannie Pantz wrote:

    I have three kids too and I totally feel you. Although I am very much “done” in the having kids department, I know what you mean about the amnesia! And my daughter (who is my youngest) was the HARDEST pregnancy–my boys were a breeze!

    I wish you all the well wishes in the world Cori! Take care of yourself and that new little!

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  8. Jess wrote:

    Congratulations! This post made me all teary-eyed. There is truly nothing more amazing than motherhood and I cannot wait to try for another baby (my daughter is 8 months)! He truly does know what He’s doing and I’m so happy for you! P.S. new to your blog and i LOVE it! It’s always inspiring me :)

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  9. karla@ bluegrass jewelry designs wrote:

    Our stories are so similar. I have 3 kids and it took me 2 1/2 years (and 2 miscarriages) to get pregnant with #4. I get so sick during the first 4 months. With my head in the toliet, I would think “what have I done to myself-again” and then I would think “remember how badly you wanted this”.: ) The Lord is good and He knows exactly what we need and when we need it.

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  10. lori wrote:

    such a sweet post. i am so thrilled for you. you are obviously an amazing mother. so full of love and grace!!

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  11. Who is G? wrote:

    Such a great post! You make me realize more how being a mom IS the greatest thing ever!

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  12. makeupandpearls wrote:

    beautiful post – and i wish you all the best with your pregnancy. :)

    laurafornerphotography.blogspot.com

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  13. Kelly Ruiten wrote:

    Cori, you rock! No, I don’t know you, and you don’t know me…but…you are just such a sweet, authentic, endearing friend, mom and wife, and those who do know you are lucky to do so! Thanks for sharing your sweet life story with your readers, you do it with such grace and I love to read your updates everyday! You deserve all the good things coming your way, God bless you!!

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  14. Erin wrote:

    Congrats on expecting! I just 2 weeks ago had my 4th little man, and the awe of the experience does get greater with each one! Looking forward to seeing how you dress your growing bump, I didn’t do as well as I had hoped this last time. :)

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  15. Jeremy and Megan wrote:

    CONGRATS!!! SO exciting! Can’t wait for your petite maternity fashion!! ….and ummm OBSESSED with those J.Simp wedges!!

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  16. Misty wrote:

    God bless pregnancy amnesia! I swore each pregnancy that I wouldn’t do it again. And I have three children. :)

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  17. Brett and Marisha wrote:

    Cori, you truly are such an inspiration to me. Last year I carried my first child and at 20 weeks found out she wouldn’t be able to survive outside of the womb. I wanted to be a mom so bad and this was not what I had planned. The lord did bless me immensely and there are so many things I learned. I now know how important every child is and this post is a good reminder when we try again that I will not complain because I do want it so bad that I need to treasure that time.

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  18. newpetite wrote:

    Such a sweet post and You look lovely!!

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  19. Nina Patricia @ The Adventures of Nina Patricia wrote:

    Congratulations!
    It seems crazy these days when some of us want to have more kids. I am dying to get pregnant again and so sad to know no one around us will be happy for us. Oh well :)

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  20. Anonymous wrote:

    Dearest Cori….congratulations on your exciting news! If you don’t mind me asking, how long did it take you to get pregnant this time around? My husband and I have been trying for our second for over a year now to no avail. I’m in need of some encouragement right about now! Thanks for sharing!

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  21. Anonymous wrote:

    congratulations dear Cori!! I was pregnant too and the due date would have been the 15th of November, but sadly I lost the baby about a week ago and it has been the hardest experience. I’m not getting younger but we’ll go on trying, we just have one kid and I always dreamed of a big family. Keep your fingers crossed! and all the best for you and your pregnancy, cant wait to see your pregnant belly

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  22. Object of Maya*ffection wrote:

    CONGRATS!! How exciting!!

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  23. Anna D Kart wrote:

    You are so sweet and honest! Lovely post and it’s a happy announcement and you look wonderful!

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